In just sixteen days I will be the BIG 3-0!
So far everything I have wanted to accomplish I have except one thing which is to have another baby. At this point in my life my blog has become my career and thanks to Army Wife 101, I am getting to travel and do things that I can only do because the two children I have are school age.
Quite frankly I don’t even know if I want another baby for the reasons mentioned above. But honestly I think I have convinced myself that I don’t want another one because I am not understanding why I am not pregnant?
In 2004 I had my first baby …my son Matt. My husband had our daughter from a previous relationship and we have raised her full time since she was three. So in essence I have my boy and girl. Be it as it may, I still long to have a baby because I think we can enjoy it more since we are more stable and established then we were seven years ago.
In 2006 I became pregnant again but miscarried. I sometimes think I jinxed that pregnancy (if there is such a thing) because I would always say this pregnancy is not going to last. The truth was I felt something was off in my body, call it women’s intuition but I knew I was going to lose that baby…not that I wanted too.
So here we are six years later and I am just as confused as ever. I mean I really have a hard time understanding how one uses no contraception of any kind for six years and never once winds up pregnant. Not even once?
What could have changed in my body that would cause me to not so much as not even have an irregular period. At least then I would suspect something was wrong. I guess I will never know because if it doesn’t happen soon…I give up!
Anyone else ever have TTC type issues?
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